Memory of Metal · Chapter I
ULTIMATE SELF
Technique: mixed media on aluminium panel, mounted on canvas
Size: 70 × 100 cm
Ultimate Self belongs to the aluminium series, a body of work built around the possibility that reality may hold far more versions of us than the one we are currently living.
If every choice, encounter, fear, loss, act of courage and path not taken could lead toward another possibility, then perhaps somewhere within those countless realities exist countless versions of the same self — each shaped by a different life.
This work asks a different question:
Among all the people we could become, is there a version of us that has come closest to truly knowing itself?
“Ultimate,” here, does not mean flawless.
It is not the most successful, the most powerful, the most admired, or the version untouched by darkness. To me, the highest version of a human being may be the one who has met that darkness and no longer needs to be governed by it.
The one who recognizes fear without becoming fear.
Who recognizes desire without becoming its servant.
Who can observe a thought before automatically believing it.
There is something extraordinary in the moment a person becomes capable of witnessing their own mind — almost stepping outside themselves, seeing the machinery of their reactions, and returning with the freedom to choose differently.
Self-knowledge then becomes more than awareness. It becomes a way of living.
Across cultures and centuries, human beings have approached this longing through different languages: wholeness, virtue, awakening, natural alignment, self-realization, the perfected human. These traditions are not the same, yet they seem to circle one enduring human question:
What happens when we are no longer divided against ourselves?
Perhaps the deepest fulfillment available to us is not to become more, but to become less fragmented.
When what we know, what we feel, what we fear and how we act begin to speak the same language. When the parts of ourselves we once rejected are no longer enemies, but information. When we know ourselves clearly enough that we are no longer unconsciously controlled by what we refuse to see.
Within the imagined logic of parallel realities, every possible version of us may have reached a different point in this process.
In one life, we may still be governed by fear.
In another, by ambition.
In another, by the need to be seen.
And somewhere, perhaps, exists a version that has learned to hold all of these forces without surrendering completely to any of them.
Ultimate Self imagines the encounter with that version.
Not as a superior being.
Not as perfection.
But as something almost sacred: the self that is most awake to itself, most aligned with its own nature, and most conscious of the person it is choosing to become.
And perhaps that version is not waiting for us in another universe at all.
Perhaps every possible self already exists within us.
Perhaps the ultimate self appears each time we are able to see ourselves clearly — the light and the darkness together — and still consciously choose who we become next.
Maybe the Ultimate Self is not the perfect self.
Maybe it is the self that can finally see itself whole.
“Warm yellows rest on cold metal like a moment of awakening — as the light changes, so does the hour of the work.”
Full manifesto coming soon